i think i need to print a wall sized canvas of the above art so that it’s truth is in my face every day.
“AND NOT ON YOU, JULIE!”}
because, when it gets down to it, in my mind i know that is what life is all about.
does my life show it, day to day? or am i rather focused on the little tasks & chores (which yes, as a mommy i cannot get away from nor should i) or my selfish struggles of late which i am deeply wrestling with and trying to give over to God.
working, working, working.
desiring, desiring, desiring.
me, me, me.
my focus so much of the time is on ME. what I want. what I have accomplished. what I dream of.
and then, there is Jesus. the God of the universe who SHOULD have been all about being focused on Himself, the worth & worship He so greatly deserved, but what does He do?
He humbles Himself by becoming a helpless little baby. Spends His entire life serving others, loving others, looking out for their well-being. He even goes so far as choosing death on a cross. He denies Himself so often, and in so many ways.
be humble & not think i deserve it all. be obedient to God the Father in what He has commanded me to do. be gracious & loving, even when it is not given back in return. give of myself freely & generously. worship with all of my heart.
i hope & pray God will grow this FOCUS in me more & more. that my eyes will truly be FIXED on Jesus. that He would increase in me. that i would more fully know & appreciate His love & grace as i draw near to Him.
grace & peace,
Copyright 2011 Julie Chen