1. I don’t feel like myself.
I am unable to accomplish daily tasks with the same energy as normal. This lack of zest gets the best of me and leads to frustration. I am accustomed to always being on the go, but sickness stops me from continually moving. My attitude toward others is more negative because of how I feel physically. My level of interaction is also decreased since I don’t feel like saying or doing much.
2. I am forced to slow down and rest.
Lent is a great time to fast from doing too much, but my type A personality can’t stand not finishing everything on my to-do list. I have a difficult time asking for help and sitting still for a long period. Resting a sickness is a power struggle on my part. I become aggravated with my disabilities and being forced to stay put. I am trapped within my own house and want to get out.
3. I have to miss out.
Whether it be a grocery store sale, a party or other special event, being sick prevents me from going to it. There were certain sales I wanted to make it to this past week, but the winter storm and my sickness got in the way. My husband and I also couldn’t attend our town’s monthly event for the same reasons. Though, I dragged my weak body to the writers’ conference. Once you pay, you are expected to attend because there are no refunds. I tried to enjoy the conference as much as I could, despite my illness. I am glad I lasted through the day because this specific conference only happens once a year.
Copyright 2013 Tanya Weitzel