Turning Away from God

Turning Away from God

Turning Away from God

I have been reading Lumen Fidei in preparation for my adult study group at work.  It is a beautiful encyclical, full of so much to pray about and ponder.  It truly calls us to understand faith within the culture we live and how to seek truth in a world where truth has become so relative.

What stood out for me though was this sentence, “Once I think that by turning away from God I will find myself, my life begins to fall apart.”  It stood out because in the last few weeks I’ve been turning away from God.  Now, I don’t mean I’ve stopped praying or going to Mass or believing in him.  Outwardly, my actions have not changed very much but I know it in my soul.  It’s as if I am hiding under the bedcovers, not wanting God to see me or me to see him.  Utter silliness and I really should know better.

Why am I turning away?  Because I’ve lost my sense of balance and am holding on to certain things and situations with a poor attitude.  Logically I know that turning toward God would be helpful but I sense it will involve change on my part or some letting go; therefore, I turn away in hopes that the concerns will go away on their own.  I think if I dig my heels in deep enough someone else will change.

The cross reference on the sentence I quoted above is Luke 15: 11-24, The Prodigal Son.  The moment I saw that I thought, “I am acting like the older son.”  It seems God has given me my assignment, read and pray those verses so you can stop turning away from me.  Care to read with me?

Copyright 2013 Deanna Bartalini


About Author

Deanna G. Bartalini, is a Catholic writer, speaker, and educator. She and her husband Deacon John have two married children and a grandson. Deanna loves teaching about Catholicism and how it fits into our daily lives. She writes at DeannaBartalini.com, serves as the editor of the NewEvangelizers.com blog, and is a contributor there as well as at AmazingCatechists.com. Deanna contributed to A Catholic Mom's Prayer Companion published by Ave Maris Press. She has written “Invite the Holy Spirit into Your Life: Growing in Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-Control” one book in the series of the Stay Connected Journals for Catholic Women published by Our Sunday Visitor. Deanna is available to lead retreats and speak at catechist and ministry events.

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