My Life is Different Because I Believe


my life is different

As the Year of Faith was drawing to a close and I was reflecting on my own gift of faith, a thought popped into my mind – a terrible thought. What if there is no God?

Such an idea just makes me laugh. Most intelligent people can look at the world around them or examine the intricacies of the human body and know there must be a God. It is, I believe, a greater leap of faith to believe that all this came from nothing than from a Supreme Being.

If I cut all the words out of a dictionary and threw them into the air, I do not think in a million tosses that those words would land in such a way so as to form a sentence, let alone a whole story. But if I were to sit down with those very same words, I could come up with some very good and creative sentences. Even if the words did manage to haphazardly form a sentence somehow, I would still have to ask, “Where did the words come from?” Indeed, there is no doubt in my mind that God exists.

What if, however, this Supreme Being who created the universe is not a personal God? What if He got bored or, more plausibly, disgusted with us, and went off to create another universe or something? Maybe He has no intention of sharing his divine and eternal life with us, His pitiful creatures. Could Scriptures be more myth than actual reality? Could Jesus be more a folk hero, a historical figure whose story became exaggerated? What if God does not care?

Then I have wasted my life. I would not have spent most of my early adult life in a convent. I would not have nine children; I would not homeschool; I would not work for a church. On the contrary, I would have two or three kids and a job; no, a career, outside the home. I would be able to pay bills and have money left over to buy myself clothes—fashionable clothes—and the latest tech gadgets. I would take the kids to Disney World, probably multiple times. And Paul and I would be doing the traveling we, right now, only dream about.

Life would be about me.

My life is different, though, because the fact of the matter is that the Supreme Being is a personal God. As unbelievable as it may seem, He does want to share His divine and eternal life with me. So much so that He left Paradise and “took the form of a slave,” as St. Paul puts it (Phil. 2:7). He was born as a human child in a stable, into poverty. He lived so as to show me how to live, teaching me what is truly important in life. Moreover, He died so that I could have life in its fullness. He died because without His Blood washing over me, I would remain in sin and selfishness. He died because He knew I needed His grace. I know my Lord is a personal God because I need Him. Not only would I not be living the life I now lead, I couldn’t.

I have nine children because I believe God was serious when He said, “Be fruitful and multiply” (Gen. 1:28). I believe that “sons are a gift from the Lord; the fruit of the womb is a blessing” (Ps. 127:3).

I also know that without the grace of God, and the help of my husband, I could not raise these precious beings without totally messing them up and ending up on Dr. Phil.  I experience God’s Divine Providence that enables us to pay the bills on an electrician’s and youth minister’s salaries.

I listen to Jesus when He says, “As for clothes, why be concerned? Learn from the lilies of the field. They do not work; they do not spin. Yet I assure you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was arrayed as one of these” (Mat. 6:28-29).

Above all, I believe that Heaven will be way more amazing than Disney World, Hawaii, the Grand Canyon and a Caribbean cruise all rolled into one. It is there, Heaven, that I hope that Paul, my children, and I go. “Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has it so much as dawned on man what God has prepared for those who love Him” (1Cor. 2:9).

So, my life is very different because I believe. God’s plan for my life is way bigger than my own plans. It’s a wonderful life. It is a blessed life. I can truly say with St. Paul, “The life I live now is not my own; Christ is living in me” (Gal. 2:20).

So how about you? You know Christ is living in you, too.

How is your life different because you believe?

Copyright 2013 Kelly Guest


About Author

God has given Kelly lots of wonderful opportunities to follow Him. She was a Dominican Sister of St. Cecilia in Nashville, an education coordinator for a Catholic Charities' program for pregnant teens, a middle school teacher, a director of religious education and is now a youth minister. Her most challenging and rewarding calling, though, is wife and mother of ten children. What she has learned, she blogs at


  1. Kelly, this is such an amazingly beautiful column! My life is different as I have the example of Jesus Christ who was God, teaching us to live and love in a way that we could follow and understand. I fall so short of loving perfectly as he did, but the grace my faith gives me each day is the greatest gift I know, one that deserves to be shared with others. Again, thank you for this beautiful article!

    • Thanks, Lisa. Don’t we all fall so short. I know God’s grace is sufficient, but I wish sometimes that it came with instructions on how to use! God bless your family’s Advent and Christmas.

  2. what a beautiful advent meditatioin. it is a time for all Christians to ask themselves what does i.t mean t.o believe to really have a personal relationship with Jesus. do I truly believe that that baby in the crib is God and he knows that he is God the word made flesh who. came into the world for all the beautiful reasons you so wisely stated. our Lord never stated that living His way would be easy. rather he said if you want to follow me come pick up your cross daily. so we too must make that trip into Jerusalem which leads to .calvary and then into eternal joy with the loving triune God. and this loving .God wants us to experience this joy and peace now especially on the days of our heaviest crosses but it takes. the graces of God and. a deep prayer life to truly say yes that babe in the feeding trough is the bread come down from heaven who nourishes me he is my life my reason for living. so keep striving for holiness that true union with God and building your treasures in heaven where no one can take them from you. Jesus said in my Fathers house there are many .mansions and one of them has the name Guest and it will be big enough for all twelve as little Thomas is already there waiting God bless

  3. Now you all know where I get it from – my thoughts, not typing skills! Thanks, Dad, for making my post even more Advent focused. God bless you for sharing.

  4. This is very beautiful.. I have been reflecting on this myself, as I am a former atheist and just began believing about nine months ago. My life has changed in so many ways and now I can’t imagine how I ever didn’t believe. I am more patient, more forgiving, more humble. I have received God’s grace in so many wonderful ways, and I am now able to appreciate it so much more. Thank you for writing this!

  5. Turning our lives over to God, you said it so perfectly.I needed to hear that, I too am a mom of nine, all grown , our youngest still at home, age 19. I am full-time care-giver to my husband who has Lou Gherigs disease and daily have to remember this is Gods plan for our lives now. Thank you for such beautiful writing. God Bless

    • You and your husband are in my prayers. May it be a grace-filled Advent and miraculous Christmas for your family.

  6. What a beautiful post! You put into words things that have been on my heart for so long. A few weeks ago a similar thought ran through my mind, when I was thinking about how secular our culture has become. I can’t conceive of a life lived outside of the Love of God. I get up every day and do all that I do, with Joy, because I know that I am in Eternity and this life is the gift that will take us into forever. I feel for all those people that go through the motions, and are living this life as if today is the finish line. God Bless you and your family for your witness to the Truth!

    • What a beautiful thought: “I am in eternity and this life is the gift that will take us into forever.” I will carry that thought with me in hopes that it increases my joy.

  7. Kelly, You shared such wonderful thoughts and your life reflects the personal relationship you have with Jesus. We not only have the hope, we have the true assurance that we will be in Heaven with our Lord and Savior because of our faith in Him and only in Him who died and rose for us. You and Paul, like us, may never “be rich” in the eyes of the worldly things, but we are rich in Christ! What more does one need or want? Blessings!

  8. Teresa Edwards on

    Thank you for your lovely and loving post, Kelly. We are so happy to know you and your family. Speaking personally, life would be WAY different without faith in a loving God who gives meaning to life in the big and little ways. I know that if I lived my life without faith in a loving Creator, I would have things real messed up! I know I would be more selfish and self centered. I would always be seeking comfort and pleasure. A life with faith is different. One can live in a way that is directed by service to others in big and small ways. It is good to ponder St Therese and her Little Way of doing small things with great love.A life of faith allows one to keep his eye on the eternal goal, to run the race and not grow weary. Even sorrow and trials do not overcome . With faith,each person can live a life with Hope!

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