A Prideful Disciple?

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"A Prideful Disciple?" by Mary Lou Rosien (CatholicMom.com)

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Several times in his Gospel, John refers to himself (presumably) as “the disciple whom Jesus loved.” (John 13:21-30,18:15-18, 19:26-27, 21:7 and 21:20) This begs the question of the average reader: was St. John conceited, or what? My own belief is that there is a hidden message within these words.

I have struggled with self worth for much of my life. After a series of devastating losses, I began to doubt that anyone (even God) could find a need for me. The idea that a saint could refer to himself in such a brazen way was completely foreign and incomprehensible to me.

However, when you read through each of these passages, it is striking to hear the joyful and trusting voice of the disciple in the Gospel. He even rests his head on Jesus’ chest in what could be described as childlike innocence. The first three references of “the disciple whom Jesus loved,” take place between the last supper and the crucifixion, perhaps John was trying to address the fact that he stayed with the Christ when the other apostles had fled in fear. Then it occurred to me . . .

John is not bragging; he is simply stating a fact! He is not placing Christ’s love for him above anyone else’s relationship with the Lord; he is recognizing his own worth. The title speaks more of the love Christ has for John than the apostle himself. The message for us is to recognize that we too are disciples whom Jesus loves. We can own that fact. It is not conceit to do so; it is confidence in Christ’s love for us.

Copyright 2017 Mary Lou Rosien

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Mary Lou Rosien is a Catholic, wife, mother to seven plus a foster son, RCIA Coordinator and writer/speaker. She is a former columnist for OSV.com and a current contributor to AmazingCatechists.com. In between making Friday cookies and laundry, she has written four books: Managing Stress with the Help of Your Catholic Faith (OSV), Catholic Family Boot Camp (Bezalel Books), The Joy-Filled Broken Heart and The Three Things Divorced Catholics Need to Know (OSV). Visit CatholicFamilyBootCamp.com for more information on suffering, divorce and other subjects.

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