Soul that Asks Understanding


Sr. Margaret continues her series on desert spirituality, sharing snippets of her book awaiting publication.

"Soul that asks understanding" by Sr. Margaret Kerry, FSP (

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“Spirit seeking light and beauty, heart that Longs for thy rest, soul that asks understanding …”

As I write this book I tap into contemporary saintly spiritual guides who walked their pilgrimage through our noisy world in sacred silence.  Spirituality is conscious striving to integrate our life. All of us have an instinct for the Divine. Where does an authentic and instinctual desire for wholeness fit in the midst of a fragmented life? St. Paul indicated it when he said, “it is no longer I who live, Christ lives in me (Gal. 2:20).

There is a story told of a lover who knocked at the door of the beloved. Each time when asked “who is there?” the lover answered “It is I.”

The voice from the other side said “There is no more room.”

The door remained unopened. Finally, the beloved, after spending time away in prayer and solitude, knocked again. This time “Who is there,” was met with “It is you.”

The door opened.

Our first guide, Blessed James Alberione, founded my Pauline community. At first Father James isn’t someone you may consider a “desert guide.” The charism he imparted, employing communication media to spread the Gospel, seems the reverse of silence. For many years a line he wrote in his Beatitudes of the Evangelizers intrigued me, “Blessed are they, who in the mystic silence of the convent, study ways of the world and on the morrow walk them.” Each day we open bookcenters on busy streets, go out to meet people, record for radio, watch movies for Media Literacy, answer the phone, and engage in social media. When I joined the community we ran very noisy printing presses and book bindery equipment. What was Alberione thinking?

The adjective “mystic” is a clue to Blessed Alberione’s thought. Mysticism, he believed, is for everyone. Not an unattainable goal, it is a natural spiritual development for those who practice faith. He referred to our silent times in the convent as “mystic silence.” Sure, I had chuckled at the mention of “silence” until forty years later I unlocked the mystery. Silence isn’t something that takes us away from ordinary life; it is found on the path to holiness. Mystic silence is not about not speaking; it is about listening. Listening by opening the ear of our heart as God communicates with us. Yes, we are called to mysticism within a technological communication culture. God chooses to use material reality as conduits of divine grace. We listen to the longing of humanity present in the culture of communication. This sacramental worldview sees the divine in the human, the invisible in the visible, and the grace of God working through ordinary people and objects.

After I’d spent a few years in the convent, Blessed Charles de Foucauld appeared on my radar. Our first meeting was through a book illustrating his Moroccan adventures, subsequent conversion and life in a desert hermitage. I imagined my novitiate to be a desert experience. I even wrote a poem that began “I wish to kneel at night in desert sands, beneath blissful shadows raise up my hands …”  Novices spent two years practicing silence with everyone but fellow novices to provide an atmosphere for prayerful study of scripture, meditation on the Constitutions of the Order, and a deeper consideration of consecrated life. My attraction to Blessed Charles, even as I prepared to officially join my very active community, awakened a desire to live contemplative life in action. De Foucauld’s order, founded after his martyrdom, lives religious life in the city alongside of their neighbors. Little Brothers and Sisters monasteries and convents are sanctuaries hidden in busy neighborhoods that silently plants seeds of faith, hope and love at the intersection of people’s lives.

Much later I met Servant of God Catherine Doherty. The priests and brothers of our order, the Society of St. Paul, had just published her biography. They held the book launch for They Called Her the Baroness in our Chicago bookcenter. Chicagoans who knew her came to share stories of her contemporary witness. They admired Catherine’s simplicity of life. Though she had been a Baroness she envisioned her life as a poustinic or desert dweller in the midst of a busy world. Those who attended were active advocates of Church social teaching. I read Poustinia to dig for the treasures they had found. Catherine blazed a trail of holiness following a unique path. She set her sails for the wind of God’s will even when her projects were dismantled. Over time she founded a lay community that shares her vision of poustinia.

Servant of God Madeleine Delbrel was introduced to me through quotes in the Magnificat monthly missalette. One of her books, The Joy of Believing, was on our library shelf. It had never attracted me with its too-plain cover. Once I met Madeleine she became one of my favorite spiritual authors! Her insights into the how of everyday holiness were fruits of her unique solitude. “At the heart of the most engaged and active of missions,” she wrote, “lies this solitude at the foundation of communion, a solitude that is adoration.”[1] Her first image—active mission – was very familiar to me. I was striving for the next – communion.

An interior pilgrimage with these contemporary women and men begins with encounter, prayerful reflection and conversion. I hope you find a friend among them to accompany you on your pilgrimage through life. Perhaps you have or will discover other saintly companions on your pilgrimage. Before we start I want to sum up the particular gifts (charisms) these guides bring to our pilgrimage:

  • Madeline Delbrêl (1904-1964) found that at the heart of communion with God lies a solitude that is adoration. Her gift is amazement that finds Christ everywhere.
  • Charles de Foucauld (1858-1916) was a mystic with a heart burning for God. He sought solitude and silence in the desert while wanting to be the universal brother. His gift is trust that all will be fulfilled in Christ.
  • Catherine de Hueck Doherty (1896-1985) popularized the concept of poustinia, dwelling in a hermitage for a day. She developed this to encompass poustinia of the heart. Her gift is an open heart that responds to Christ.
  • James Alberione (1884-1971) attended Vatican Council II and lived into the decade that introduced a technological future. While adopting technology for evangelization, James was inspired by St. Paul who “prayed even more in the desert in the years of his preparation for his ministry.”[2] His gift is integration of the whole person in Christ.

Pause to write a brief spiritual self-biography. What gift will you ask the Holy Spirit to manifest through you?

to be continued…


The hymn Spirit Seeking Light & Beauty was written by English Roman Catholic convert,Sacred Heart sister and educator Janet Erskine Stuart, Mother Janet Stuart RSCJ (1857 – 1914).

[1] Delbrel, Madeleine We the Ordinary People, 174

[2] Alberione, James, Opera Omnia,, 254

Copyright 2017 Sr. Margaret Kerry, FSP


About Author

A Daughter of St. Paul for 40 years Sr. Margaret continues to pursue new ways to proclaim the Gospel: sharing the Pauline Charism with the laity, writing books (St. Anthony of Padua: Fire & Light; Strength in Darkness: John of the Cross; Prayers for the New Evangelization), & through direct evangelization. She is available for workshops on the Vocation & Mission of the Laity, Media Literacy, and The New Evangelization.

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