It’s that time of year again.
The time of year a slight feeling of panic starts creeping into my chest, making it a little harder to breathe.
The time of year when school’s almost done and summer break is almost begun.
The time of year my email inbox fills with a constant gush of requests, sign-up reminders, (Wait, I don’t remember signing-up for that? What was I thinking back in September?!), important dates to remember and deadlines to meet.
The time of year I realize I should already have a summer plan in place and registrations for summer activities submitted and paid for before it’s too late. The time of year I get overwhelmed with all the choices and schedules.
It’s the time of year I begin fearing the voices:
He hit me.
She touched me.
I was sitting there first (in my mind)!
What can I do?
I don’t want to do anything.
I’m so booorrrreeeed.
God, it’s that time of year again.
The time of year I need you. Like, really, really, NEED you.
I need you, God.
Help me breathe … in … out … in … out.
Help me be grateful — for the teachers, the administrators, the paraeducators and volunteers, the lunch ladies (can I hire them this summer?) the janitors — God, bless them!
Help me manage all the emails and dates, all the requests and to-do’s.
Help me say, “Yes,” to what I can and say, “No,” to what I can’t.
Help me accept my imperfections and those of my children.
Help me surrender — perfection, stability, predictability, peace and quiet.
Help me to Trust in You: with everything.
Help me soak in these quieter days and turn to you in prayer.
God, I ask you to fill me with all the grace, strength, love — and patience! — you can give me.
I’m going to need it!
I’m going to need YOU!
Copyright 2018 Erika Marie