This last year has been very difficult in many ways but particularly in the area of relationships. I read a book called Boundaries by Henry Cloud that helped me gain perspective on the relationships in my life. The book helped me start making decisions about what kind of relationships I had and how to improve them.
However, in order to do this I had to be willing to have the courage to begin the process of really digging deep and discovering who I really am as a daughter of God.
As His daughter, I need to be respected and loved unconditionally. This means that others would think outside of themselves instead of having a relationship that is only about what is in it for them and their benefit.
During these last couple of months, I have learned a lot about myself and my relationships, especially within my family structure. Sadly, many of these relationships were not healthy, and to make things worse they didn’t bring out the best parts of me, but the worst. I had to seriously be honest with myself and with God. Who is willing to grow to help me be the person God created me to be? Who is willing to cheer me on?
On this journey I had many conversations with Jesus. I kept asking Him to show me who He created me to be and to guide me on this journey of self-discovery.
I felt sad, lost, and confused, especially when family members didn’t like what was happening.
Jesus was with me as well as my best friend, my younger sister, who kept reminding me that God was in control and this was the journey to healing. I had to be ready to dig deep within my wounds.
I am not done on this road of self-discovery. Jesus is helping me bring my wounds to Him and be honest with Him and with myself. This is the only way He can heal me. All healing takes time, and like all other things, it is all about God’s timing, not mine.
I am thankful that I am on this journey so I can be a better person, mother, teacher, and friend. I can’t wait to find out more about the plans God has for me.
Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Estrada