This little light of mine might not shine

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"This little light of mine might not shine" by Pam Spano (CatholicMom.com)

Copyright 2017 Pam Spano. All rights reserved.

 

Lent is finally over!  I am so glad the dreary, rainy days that consumed the Lenten season are finally bringing a little sunshine!

Our choir sang “This Little Light of Mine” for the vigil Mass on the fourth Sunday of Lent. That song and the day’s readings remained stuck in my head for quite some time. The reason? I think this little light of mine might not shine.

Despite the large crucifix I wore around my neck (proclaiming how Catholic I was!), the lesson I learned that Lent doesn’t have to be depressing, the Stations I participated in, the prayers and reading I did during Lent, I found myself unhappy, especially with my actions. One action in particular.

There was someone that I lost my patience with and I chose to lash out. I had been holding my tongue for a while, and the pent-up frustration and anger that had been boiling inside me shot out like a volcano. There was some satisfaction in the release of it, but the aftermath left me with a headache and chest pains. I also know that it made no difference to the person I lashed out at. Their behavior will never change; only my reaction to them can.

My tongue and my heart have run wild without restraint, causing misery to others and shame for myself. – St. Ambrose

In a matter of minutes my anger wiped out the past four weeks of my feeble participation of the most holy season of my Church. Ugh.

I went back and read those readings hoping a little light would shine my way. It wasn’t until I attended a Peter Frampton concert and heard this lyric that a low wattage bulb went on just for me:

Find your light, turn it on, shine it down on everyone. – Peter Frampton from Not Forgotten 

"This little light of mine might not shine" by Pam Spano (CatholicMom.com)

Copyright 2017 Pam Spano. All rights reserved.

I got lost in the lyrics and music of this rock & roll icon, and when I emerged from the concert, I had found my light again.

How about this little light of yours? Did you find your light this Lent?

Copyright 2017 Pam Spano

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I converted to the Catholic faith as an adult over 30 years ago. My conversion story started when I sarcastically said to my Catholic boyfriend at the time, “I suppose if we were to get married, you would want me to convert.” He thought for a moment and said, “Well, I am worried about your soul.” And so the journey began …

4 Comments

  1. Another great piece Pam. I did find my light this Lent – I turned off the TV and found productivity in my work and my prayer life!! I pray that I can continue and keep that light shining on God!

    p.s big Frampton fan in the day 🙂

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