We know that Advent is a time of prayerful waiting. But we are not waiting alone. God waits with us. In fact, He’s not just waiting for us during these 22 days of Advent, he’s been waiting for us our entire lives! And he will continue to wait for us until the moment our earthly life comes to its close. What in the world is He waiting for?
“… a God who waits that He may make Himself known to us perfectly as the gracious One.” – Andrew Murray (1828-1917), South African Missionary
This Advent, God has invited me to consider that He is waiting for me to have the eyes to see Him more clearly; to have the heart to experience Him more authentically as He is: the gracious One. That’s a lot to wait for as this might take me a while! But He’s not just sitting around twiddling His sovereign thumbs, passively waiting for me. His is a very alive, very active waiting, where He constantly reveals bits of His glory to help move me along. Each time I am awe-struck by the majesty of the night sky, I am drawn closer. When my precious 2-year-old curls up on my lap and presses his cheek to mine, I am overcome by God’s goodness.
He draws us into Himself through these encounters with His glory, His love, His goodness. And my desire to live enfolded in His peaceful presence intensifies. My commitment to trust Him and serve Him above all else strengthens. It is a beautiful, purposeful dance. Because there’s something else that He is waiting for: He’s waiting for my yes. For my continual yes, actually. My willingness to submit to His plan, each day of my life.
One day, back in the Spring of 2014, I was cleaning out the drawers in my bedside table and I discovered a book titled, Preparation for Total Consecration according to Saint Louis Marie de Montfort. I remember thinking, “Huh, I didn’t even know I had this book. I wonder where it came from? This looks interesting.” And it made its way from the bottom of the drawer to the top of the nightstand. Every couple of nights, I would open it, read a prayer or two, and return it to the nightstand. A few months went by and I felt a lot of energy towards the daily prayers at the beginning of the book. So I began carrying the book around with me and reading through the daily prayers each morning. I spent months reading the prayers every day and never going beyond page 6.
Then one day, I flipped to a different page (page 11) and read a paragraph that shocked me. It was shocking because the words I read there described exactly an interior state I’d been struggling with for some time. I hadn’t been able to put words to my feelings before and reading St. Montfort’s description was truly a gift to me. And there it had been, merely 5 pages away, for almost a year! I could almost hear God saying, “Sheesh, it took you long enough. I thought you would never turn that page! The suspense has been unbearable!”
That encounter taught me just how patiently He is willing to wait for me! He so patiently waits for us to have the eyes to finally see what He is revealing to us! And all that He reveals continually shapes and molds us into the women He has created us to be so that we might fulfill the heavenly purpose for which we’ve each been created.
During Advent, let us pray for the eyes to see our God more clearly, to seek Him with an open and expectant heart. Let us pray that the Lord will help us move out of our way whatever blocks our sight. Here are some lines I learned from St. Louis de Montfort that pretty much have it covered:
In the name of Jesus, I renounce a spirit of the world.
In the name of Jesus, I renounce myself.
In the name of Jesus, I renounce my pride.
And may I add to that: Lord Jesus, give me the grace to be open to Your patient and gentle stirrings in my heart. Help me to always follow Your lead. I submit myself to your Holy Spirit, this day and everyday. Do with me what you will. I am ready for all, I accept all! Amen.
Copyright 2017 De Yarrison