Today’s Gospel: Luke 18:9-14 – 30th Sunday in Ordinary Time
“…for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled and the one who humbles himself will be exalted.” – Luke 18:14
I am not sure I like thinking of myself as a sinner. But I am. Sometimes I am pretty honest about my real me. Sometimes not.
But I know God knows all.
Several years ago I went through a prolonged time of depression. There seemed to be no reason for it, but there it was. And I could not climb my way out of it. I told my spiritual director about it and he told me to say “Jesus, have mercy” over and over, all day every day. He grew silent for a moment and then said, “No, just repeat ‘Jesus’ over and over. Make it your mantra.”
And I did. Any time I was alone, praying or walking or eating or going to sleep or going to work, I repeated Jesus over and over in my mind. It became such a habit, I no longer needed to remind myself. His name became the first thought on my mind, whenever I was alone or it was quiet.
Eventually the depression faded away. And in its place, I found a new way of praying. And a stronger faith in Jesus’ presence and love in my life.
Unfortunately, the prayer practice of repeating Jesus’ name faded away. Not from my memory, just from practice. I miss it. And whenever I read or hear this gospel reading, I am reminded. And every time I might feel a little depressed, I am reminded.
I am a sinner. And Jesus loves me.
And I pray Jesus’ name over and over. And I am humbled.
What does it mean to you to feel humbled? Have you prayed the Jesus prayer?
Jesus, help me to remember Your healing love and the power of Your name.
Copyright 2019 Colleen Spiro
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